Post by April Radford on Jun 6, 2009 21:40:25 GMT
April Sarah Radford
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`I THINK WE HAVE AN EMERGENCY
so are you listening?
NICKNAMES April Fools
SEX Female
D.O.B May 27th
AGE 18
HEIGHT 5ft1
ETHNICITY English
SEXUALITY Straight
ILLNESS(S)/ REASON FOR BEING HERE Anorexia which causes Depression
PLAYED BY cheryl cole
CLIQUE
Psychatric Disorder
SUB CLIQUE
Attention Seeker
DESCRPTION
April has had a hard life, she loves her family and until the age of fourteen loved her life but now she finds it hard to cope what with her friends taunting her by calling her fat for years. She was a chubby child but after the children at her school had acted so mean and started bullying her she decided to shed a few pounds. The results of this were unbelievable and she was no longer the fat loner kid. She had boyfriends, and many girls admired her. She was always told how great she looked now she had lost a bit of weight and April began to seek more attention.
After the buzz of her new body died down she decided that losing a bit more weight would help her redeem her popular status. She continued to lose more and more weight but this time it had a negative effect and she got too skinny. After being forced to admit to being anorexic she went through a tough time as she was put in an institution. This made her quite sad and after she ate she decided that the only thing she should do was self harm, although she could never manage to do it to herself. She instead would scratch at her arms for attention although never really cutting. She was not depressed more saddened by everything that had gone on. She is currently not a happy hard working girl, and instead a shadow of her former self, although she is not as skinny as she once was, she still is thin and sometimes falls back into her old eating habits.
April can be seen as quite mean with some of her comments nowadays as she just wants some attention. Even bad attention is better than none at all.
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`AND I CANT PRETEND I DONT SEE THIS
it's really not your fault
when no one cares to talk about it
when no one cares to talk about it
NAME DISLIKES not being in the limelight, eating, her fathers girlfriend, people who don't understand, liars, cheaters, arrogant people, this place, and you.
HOBBIES April enjoys singing, she use to do this in a choir, although loved being solo. She also likes dancing around tthe place without a care in the world, she use to enjoy skiing although she finds this hard now she is so skinny. April enjoys painting landscapes rather than people because people aren't as simple. She also likes writing stories about people like her and reading about how to lose weight.
MOM Annabelle Radford, 40 (deceased)
DAD Nick Radford, 42, Lawyer
SIBLINGS None
OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS Uncle Charles, 35, from her mothers side. Works in an office but still manages to be incredibly cool.
OVERALL PERSONALITY[/b]
▪ April is a hard person to work out. She will be happy one second and then sad the next, she can't help this however as it is just her. She normally laughs at the most stupidest of things, although she knows in her head that it isn't funny and that she is only laughing because she needs to remember that she can. April believes in love but has never fell in it. She hopes to meet someone one day but finds her situation puts many people off. She isn't nearly as skinny as she was once before but she still is thinner than perhaps is healthy.
April is always after attention with her father not giving her any, and her having no one else to turn to. She at first began to lose weight because of her being bullied but then more and more it became apparent she was losing it for the sake of her getting some attention. She began to see that her father did love her, but felt only when she needed him around. Her relationship with her father has always been strained, since she feels he blames her for being the one to kill her mother. As it was during child birth that she died. This just shows how selfish and self centered April is as her father never blamed her for it at all, but it was because April considered the world to revolve around her that she assumes it must be.
April is a very pretty girl, she flaunts her sexuality around, any chance she gets as it makes her feel more accepted and normal . On the whole however she doesn't have real relationships only flings because she is scared to let anyone close to her and also nobody wants her when they see what a mess she is. She is improving very well however but has been to rehab on rebounds before. This time her improvement looks to be for good although that is just perhaps hopeful thinking.
April enjoys going out to parties she use to go all the time, but then her energy levels dropped and she found it so hard to even get out of bed that any idea of a party would make her tired. Now she has gained a little more weight she does enjoy spending time with people, and even if they do not party they can still talk and have fun. She never got involved with drugs and drink as although she partied never enjoyed the idea of mixing with 'that lot'. She use to be quite stereotypical of people and although wasn't racist or sexist, she could avoid talking to someone because of them mixing in with the wrong crowd. After seeing that she was really messed up also she began to understand a lot more about other people. She is still an attention seeker but she can now relate to others, although she'd be damned if she gave them the limelight.
She used to be able to see the good in everyone and was optimistic even through being bullied, this changed when she was forced into an institution, where she had to eat food and couldn't get away with having bulimia. Only on very odd occasions does she attempt to self-harm this is only after a really rough day but even still she tends to try to be more positive about life. Also she can never actually manage to self harm because she chickens out at the last minute. She doesn't feel depressed as such, she just feels like she needs some attention.
April isn't great at keeping secrets, she doesn't blab them out to just about everyone but can be known in a moment of anger to share them willingly to anyone who will listen. She doesn't always make a great friend although she does try. She is really sweet and kind when you get down to know her well which takes a lot as she has so many boundaries. After her 'friends' ditched her for being diagnosed as having anorexia, she sees that they aren't always trust worthy so is much more cynical of people now. She finds it easier to talk to people who have been through similar situations as herself as they don't judge her. Although she knows she can irritate some with her need to be center of attention. Even though she loves the limelight however, she can be fiercely shy depending on whether she likes someone or not.
April considers herself to be straight although wouldn't really know about being bi as she has never been attracted to the other sex. She has only had four boyfriends in her life, and is still a virgin. These boyfriends didn't last long with her having trust issues and the majority she just has flings although these just involve making out and nothing more.
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`IF YOU THINK I'D LEAVE THEN YOU WERE WRONG
cause i wont stop holding on
▪ April's history isn't exactly haunting but it isn't the happiest either. She made many friends as a child but never actually had a best friend. She was a fairly chubby kid and after the age of fourteen she found that by losing weight she could gain some attention. This continued for many years, until she was seventeen when she finally started eating normally, well smaller portions but more acceptable ones. She has to be kept an eye on however, as you can never know with anorexia. The voices in her head telling her to eat less have near enough gone and only return on really hard days. April does her best to ignore them and finds that by covering her ears and shutting her eyes out, it helps to deal with the pain from anorexia.
April never really had a connection with her father, he was perfectly acceptable although not always there like she needed. Her childhood wasn't unhappy, she had friends, although was not close to anyone, and although was deprived of a mother knew no other way. She was not use to having a mother figure in her life, nor a father figure for a time being but as odd as it sound she did not mind as she was not use to that. Her mother died in child birth but April doesn't miss her as they never knew one another. She sometimes wonders what she would have been like but does not know exactly. She owns photographs of her mother, and sees many things facially they have in common but sometimes that isn't enough and she wants to know more.
Her father is a workaholic although it is clear he loves his daughter very much, he just doesn't always know how to show it. For years it was accepted that they loved one another and nothing more was said on the matter, it is more of an excuse for April to use for getting this way that she felt neglected.
April is a bright person although the spurt of Ana has caused her to become behind on her studies, she dreams of one day in the future becoming a teacher like her mother once was, although to do this she knows she would have to change a lot about herself. It isn't acceptable to be so thin a person, although she has gained more weigh now, and she knows that if she ever wants to have children, like she does she can not lose anymore weigh at all as she does not wish to be infertile. She currently does not know if she can or can not have children but she does hope that she still can.
[i'm so tired, this is only four paragraphs, so if you accept it then great if not then let me know you want me to add to it and i'll think of something =)]
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`SCARS, THEY WILL NOT FADE AWAY
I've seen you cry, way too many times
when you deserved to be alive
when you deserved to be alive
NICKNAMES Torza, Silver
AGE[/b] 16
WHERE CAN WE CONTACT YOU? pm or AIM TorzaHereWoot
ACTIVITY LEVEL hopefully daily
EXPERIENCE 4 years
AVERAGE POST LENGTH[/b]can do above 500 normally 300
WHERE DID YOU FIND US? Hardley Institue for the Arts
PASSWORD Reckless
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I was going to change to depression but then would have to change the whole thing, so stuck with ana
